To my old best friend,
It seems like just yesterday we were roaming the halls of our high school arm in arm, smiles as big as the sun. We were happy juniors, no longer the bottom of the food chain but not so high up that we spent a ton of time thinking about grown-up worries. Of course it wasn’t yesterday.
It’s been 6 years since I’ve seen you. Things have changed. You moved out of state our junior year and it was one of the saddest days of my life. Truthfully, I haven’t been the same since then. I’ve never had a friend I love as much as I loved you. In fact, I haven’t been able to make many female friends at all. I guess I have a social problem or something. Something about letting people in. Now don’t feel bad for me, I’ve made other friends since you. It’s just…they haven’t been the same.
I got my first car, my first place, my first dog, I got married and I even had my first baby. I know these may seem like just normal things, but I’d always imagined you being apart of them. We’re Facebook friends so I see you’re doing well and I’m glad for that. I’m glad to know that life has been good to you. I’m happy you made it to graduation day and even started the college life! You still have your monster dog, he was one of my favorites, and I see you still saddle up and go horseback riding. I’ve had to sell my horses, so I don’t get to anymore.
I see you’re a different person too. I guess that’s what growing up is all about. I don’t know if we would still be best friends had you stayed. We don’t have much in common anymore. At 22 you’re in college and going to extravagant events while I’m at home folding tiny socks and playing with toy cars with my son and husband.
No matter where life takes us I’ll always hold you close to my heart. You stand as a living memory to my youth and the person I used to be. For that alone, I’ll always care for you. I still smile when I hear songs we used to scream in your car on warm nights. I still laugh when I look at old pictures. Hell, I still feel a sadness when I remember my last day with you. I hope you get some of these same feelings. I hope you know that deep down, I’ll always know you as my best friend. ❤️
~Your Old Best Friend