“I’m so sorry that I didn’t know how to describe this pain and seek help” she wrote in her goodbye email.
Her grieving family is now breaking the silence that Allison couldn’t bring herself to break, hoping that by telling her story, they will save lives—even just one life would be so worth it—and to encourage families to dig deeper and ask hard questions even if everything seems fine on the surface.
“If this can happen to Allison, it can happen to anyone,” her mom Carol Matthews says.
“Just the days before, she was just the happiest, smiling,” said her father.
They received absolutely no red flags that something was wrong.
Postpartum depression and psychosis tells a new mom terrible lies about herself and her life—tells her that it will always be this way, and that there’s no way out, that her family is better off without her. It’s up to friends and families of new moms to be proactive and speak truth into their lives—even if we have no reason to suspect that anything is wrong.
It’s something Allison’s family wishes they had known enough to do—and it’s why they are putting their pain on display to encourage other families to ask new moms the hard questions about their mental health.