Mom to a 4-Month-Old Takes Her Own Life After Postpartum Depression — And Her Family Had No Idea

From photos, Allison Goldstein had the perfect life. She was married to a great guy and had a brand new baby girl, Ainsley. But those close to her had no idea;  Allison was being tormented and lied to by postpartum depression—and she never let on.postpartum depression featThat’s why her family was shocked when Allison wrote a goodbye email that was several pages long, checked her 4-month-old daughter into a day care center, drove herself to a dirt road, and took her own life. They literally had NO warning, as Allison kept her depression to herself, and put up a good front that everything was just fine.


“I’m so sorry that I didn’t know how to describe this pain and seek help” she wrote in her goodbye email.

Her grieving family is now breaking the silence that Allison couldn’t bring herself to break, hoping that by telling her story, they will save lives—even just one life would be so worth it—and to encourage families to dig deeper and ask hard questions even if everything seems fine on the surface.

“If this can happen to Allison, it can happen to anyone,” her mom Carol Matthews says.

“Just the days before, she was just the happiest, smiling,” said her father.


They received absolutely no red flags that something was wrong.


Postpartum depression and psychosis tells a new mom terrible lies about herself and her life—tells her that it will always be this way, and that there’s no way out, that her family is better off without her. It’s up to friends and families of new moms to be proactive and speak truth into their lives—even if we have no reason to suspect that anything is wrong.

It’s something Allison’s family wishes they had known enough to do—and it’s why they are putting their pain on display to encourage other families to ask new moms the hard questions about their mental health.


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